i miss you already ): but you showed you nothing for me to have the urge to fight for this. Things happen for a reason. :) i wish you would have fought for me but oh well. This time was different from last time so i cant do much but just hope. Im glad im not as sad as i thought i would be but i can feel some hurt though :p
I see and feel everything coming to its down fall. I can’t be with someone who isn’t willing to fight for me. I just can’t. I’m just trying to get myself out of this before I get any deeper into the shit hole. The only reason I can’t leave you on my own is because Id rather stick around than leave.. its such perfect weather for such horrible night. I think that’s what is keeping me distracted? just thinking about the things I do with you makes me want to swallow my pride. I honestly don’t want anyone else. but I can’t force someone to stay. I miss you already.. I.hate that neither of us give in so we both give up. but things happen for a reason. if you really want to stay with me you will. pfft I know I’m soo going to regret not swallowing my pride.. my boyfriend means soooo much to me & by the end of the night I’m going to loose him.. ): what a night. I just want to talk to someone who just listens but then I feel like I need time to think. & I hope that’s what you’re doing right now. I’m hoping for a miracle. I don’t want to loose you but I’m not holding you back..