I had my guard up for so long. I finally put it down & this happens? I havent cried this much in forever. I wish it wasnt real. I feel so broken. I miss him already.. It feels like a dream. A dream i want to be over. I never realized how much he ment to me till now. Please dont let this happen ): my boyfriend means so much to me.. Although i dont appreciate all he does for me i know i got the best i could ever ask for.